well it's hard to imagine but football season is over.

we lost last night. but i love our boys and they had a great season. nothing to be ashamed of.

i wouldn't have wanted to be with anyone else last night than my 3 most amazing friendsss. = )

don't know what i'm doing today.. i think i'm going to the cambridge game with danielle. keith wanted to do something. i guess i need to call them and find out. ha.

<3

playoffs baby : )

well it's come down to this.

tomorrow is the big day.

i shall be going on a road trip with gabe, dee, liz, and i think heather. ahhh. 5 crazy girls in a dually...you know that will be amazing. it's def. going to be a girls' night out. : )

tomorrow is also my mommy's birthday..

i'm totally stoked for the game.

oh and to sarah starr..

you are my hero. : )

 he isnt my boyfriend- but I love his hugs, his smile, his advice,
his love, his kindness, & the times we laugh together- I guess I fell in love with our friendship

yup. 5:44 a.m. and i've been up doing this stupid english.

school was actually good today.

rest of the week should be alright.

tomorrow = pep rally

friday = game

saturday = me and keith riding and going to movies

the football team had " bonding" tonight. ha

sarah motha effin' starr is hooking me up with a celly.. = )

i hate english, i hate english, ohhh and i hate english.

i've been working on this book report for about 3 hours now. and i'm about to pass out.

but i have been sitting here thinking about a lot of stuff while talking to lexi lou.

-- these are my emotions,

i only have about 1 year and 3 nine weeks left of highschool. so why am i letting some people get the best of me? these are suppose to be the "best days of our lives." i'm only going to go through highschool once. why let it be like this? yeah the school work sucks..but damn. i get to spend every day with some of the best people ever. and i'm not going to take that for granted anymore. brandon and i were talking last night when i took him home and like he said..our class has to be the closest class there has ever been. everyone get's along with everyone. when something goes wrong, you have people right there to catch you. once you think about it, you practically spend more time at school and school events than you do at home. so why am i doing this to myself? i need to let go and enjoy my highschool years. i have some of the best friends in the whole world. and they have stuck right by me. no matter what. all the way back to kindergarden. yup. hard to believe. i still have the same best friends. friday night football games wouldn't be the same. the student section at basketball wouldn't be the same. people are going to hate you because you are trying to get something that they had. but that's just a part of life. people are going to be jealous. you just need to deal with it. you had your chance. and blew it. i'm not going to let people tear me down anymore. drama is going to happen to everyone. you have to accept what happens and move on. it's not always easy ( especially in my situation ) but i have to realize things are meant to happen for a certain reason. what is meant to be will be. it's all a part of life. people change. some people find better things and forget the old. either way, i'm starting to realize what life is really about. having fun with people who CARE about you. don't waste your time on someone who wouldn't waste their time on you. the people you think you can count on, are the one's who let you down first. this is all a journey of finding out who i really am. but you are going to see that this girl's smile is slowly coming back to her face.

now that is all out and some tears have been shed,

this girl needs to go to sleep because even though she doesn't have school, she has job- shadowing.

blahhhh.

just got home from taking brandon home from nelsons..it was def. good to have a night out with the gang.

last night was amazing..

undefeated in pvc..

and going to playoffs..second time in school history.

way to go boys. = )

:: edit ::

looks like me and the girls' will be traveling to shadyside on friday..